If you read yesterday's blog, you know I was approaching the Desert Triathlon with a fairly nonchalant attitude. At least the race part. However, I'm more excited about the weekend for a different reason.
For the past few weeks, I've been walking around with a noticeable spring in my step. My smile has felt bigger, my laugh heartier, my joy practically uncontainable. It's been hard not to share the news with everyone, but there was a little bit of housekeeping that had to occur first.
Am I talking about buying a new bike or piece of triathlon equipment? Not even close.
My favorite person in the world, Stephanie, has re-entered my life. Yes, we are dating again, and yes, we're looking forward to a long life together with plans for an engagement already in progress.
She's also here supporting me at the Desert Tri event.
I couldn't be any happier!
For those of you who have been with me since the blog started, you're probably wondering: "But didn't you spend the past couple months trying to move forward with your life? I don't get it."
Totally valid point. The truth is that after a LOT of soul-searching, I realized that there's only so much time you can spend rationalizing or analyzing your life instead of simply appreciating it for what it is and going with the flow. I also realized that if you want something bad enough, you have to be prepared to defend your choices and accept the consequences -- which I wasn't always able or willing to do in this relationship. I thought my life was supposed to head in a certain direction but every time either Steph or I tried to move on a different path we always found a way back to each other.
And I'm truly at home now. At peace. FINALLY. With myself, with this choice, with life. I am filled with gratitude every day for getting to spend the rest of my life with my favorite friend.
The story of Stephanie and me is one that requires several blog posts to even begin to describe. Over the course of this Ironman journey, I'm going to share tales of how we met, some of the struggles along the way, and of course all the fun that's going to follow in the coming months and years.
The first tale has to start with how Steph and I met, which I still chuckle about every time I think about it. I will save the story for another post next week.
When I first began this blog, I intended it to be a blueprint for my future children to learn how to tackle big goals in their lives.
I never realized it would be an ode to "How I met your mother."
Aren't they going to be lucky.
Race day is 12 hours away, and I couldn't care less. With Steph being here, I've already won.
262 days and counting.